We're back and just as excited as before with a brand new poem. On a different note, I think I have a new favorite poet who I hope you enjoy cause it's week two of a Neil Hilborn poem. Neil Hilborn's poem, Me, But Happy talks about the feelings, thankfulness, and overall love he has for his partner, (I know another post you get to hear me talk about how great love is and my girlfriend). I yet again connected to this poem from the first line I read (it's easy to connect if you understand the feelings it's portraying) and fell in love with the rest of it. He goes on to talk about all the ways he has changed within himself after meeting them. He thanks them for "making all the love songs mean something again" which seems like a silly statement but to some it's the difference between smiling or not. One of the biggest changes someone can have is the change of feeling like you have to do something but now wanting to do it, Neil Hilborn mentions brushing his teeth as something he doesn't have to do but he "gosh darn" wants to now. Which is something that made me giggle and connect to because whenever I know I'm going to see her I always double brush my teeth, chew some gum, and put on more deodorant and perfume. He makes multiple references connecting doing something with them to a grander almost ridiculous counter. For example, he compares hanging out with them to smashing your face into cool wet sand, holding their hand to making out with Jesus, and being okay with having rickets (a softening and weakening of bones in children, usually due to inadequate vitamin D) just because they would have it together.
Hilborn starts to thank them which is one of the simplest ways to show how much you love someone in my opinion. The first one he states, "I would like to thank you for never, not once, not ever making fun of me for crying while I watch the same scene from Parks and Recreation for the 25th time.", I immediately connected to the serious part about crying. As a very emotional person who cries at everything no matter how many times I have seen or read something I have personally thanked her for that also. It's such an uplifting feeling to not have someone make fun of something that you can't always control like that. He mentions getting distracted by how pretty they are all the time showing how much you train of thought will revolve around that person. Your thoughts and mentality do change when you are in love. He mentions his mental illness which a lot of people to live and struggle with but he says how before he wanted to be dead all of the time it has now changed, "...now that you're here I don't want to 'want to die' anymore" which I also believe enforces the idea that a person can sometimes work better than any medicine prescribed. Myself personally I know my anxiety has gotten easier to control and handle since meeting her. Sometimes that one person can be your reason to get up and go on with your day and I believe he beautifully and comedically words it, "If you're a breakfast, you'd be called 'reason to wake up'os'." All through out this poem he knows how to balance the serious topics with the funny counter.
I think his last sentence successfully pulls all of the feelings and ideas into one thought. There is all these unexplained things but they don't matter anymore with them. He writes, "Sure, there're probably infinite dimensions but I'm with you in this one so why would I try to find them?" which I think is such a creative way to say that he doesn't need to find anything else because he has found it all with them. To be able to find someone who means the world to you, or has become your world in a sense, I think is such a beautiful thing. Most people feel they never will or spend so much time searching for it but the key is to just not search. You have to wait and let it come to you and all of it will fall into place and it will be "the best thing that has happened to me since I was like... born." and the rest will be history. Me, But Happy by Neil Hilborn talks about the joys and changes experienced through out loving someone. Love changes a person and I think this poem beautifully conveys that in such a serious yet funny way.
"When I'm around you it's like I'm full of electricity..."
Expansion - Paige Bradley